[Note: This is Part 4 of a 9-part series. Each part is a song from Awkward Anonymous’ album Reality Time Machine. To read about the backstory of this album, click here. To listen to this song on YouTube, click here.]
Verse 1
Paint the ceiling, what I’m feeling, and the color I’m seeing, I think I’m believing it’s blue.
It’s hard pretending, I’m not intending, the things I'm letting, and never forgetting it's true.
And now I'm really starting to enjoy the view.
The risk I'm taking, the mess you're making, it's so frustrating, and oh I hate explaining to you.
I'm such a loser, a begging chooser, don't think about the future, I'm happy just maneuvering through.
And now I really don't know what to do.
Chorus
I won't be home, quite just yet. All the feelings are pretend.
Fear of failing, I won't try. It's been hailing all my life.
Verse 2
*Instrumental*
Chorus
I won't be home, quite just yet. All the feelings are pretend.
Fear of failing, I won't try. It's been hailing all my life.
Verse 3
Paint the ceiling, what I’m feeling, and the color I’m seeing, I think I’m believing it’s blue.
It’s hard pretending, I’m not intending, the things I'm letting, and never forgetting it's true.
And now I'm really starting to enjoy the view.
The risk I'm taking, the mess you're making, it's so frustrating, and oh I hate explaining to you.
I'm such a loser, a begging chooser, don't think about the future, I'm happy just maneuvering through.
And now I really don't know what to do.
Chorus
I won't be home, quite just yet. All the feelings are pretend.
Fear of failing, I won't try. It's been hailing my whole life.
Outro
Paint the ceiling, what I'm feeling, and the color I'm seeing, I think I'm believing it's blue.
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